Haven't been posting in a while

Sorry I haven't been posting much you guys, I do have much to update ya'll with and I just got back to school after 3 weeks of spring break so I'm getting back into the whole school routine. More tomorrow :)

"Your parents love you...The way they show it may not be the way you want it to be shown, but they do love you."

I definitely needed that, I would've never thought in a million years that he would be the one to tell me this. Thank you.

Fuck Her.

I'm not one to swear, and I'm sorry if it offends anyone but FUCK HER. She acts like she knows me, but she doesn't know shit. All you do is attack me and when I give you an answer it isn't good enough. I guess I'm just not good enough. FUCK YOU. I wish she put me up for adoption like she said she was before, I hate being here and I have no one to talk to. 

And with that I'm low again. I knew I couldn't be in a good place for too long. The thoughts are back, and I think I just might go through with it tonight. Thanks a lot.

My hair

So I'm thinking about cutting my hair which is kind of a decision I sort of came to myself, but then again with the constant yelling by my mother about getting it cut off also plays some type of role in this conclusion. My hair isn't that long it just touches my shoulders and it would be nice if it were a little longer so I could wear it different ways than just the same old hairstyle I do besides putting it in a ponytail and having this type of bang sweep across my face. Another reason for it is seeing these hairstyles and I'm like so jealous cause it looks so good and my hair is like blah. I'll do another post with some of the styles I'm talking about.

My grades are in!

This is kind of a win/lose situation when it comes to my grades. First off I just want to say, you know how there's those people in school who are like geniuses but when they're taking a quiz/test/essay they're like "Omg I'm gonna fail, this is so hard" blah blah blah yet when they get there grades back they get A's on it or when they get their report cards and they have all A's and are like "My grades were so bad?" Yea well I've never been one to do that until now.


So before I see my own grades my mom is yelling at me about the grade I got in my math class, and I'm thinking I have like a C in it or something, but I check my grades and I have a B which is alright, but I know I can do better. Then I look at the rest of my grades and they're all some type of an A with the exception of my math grade and I'm still a little upset about it. Sure I do have good grades, but I was hoping I had atleast a B+ to achieve my goal of having a B+ or higher in all my classes. This is the second time I've been close to reaching it, so I hope during the spring term I can to end my high school career on a good note.

Something Funny

So I was on oovoo (which is kind of like skype except you can vid chat with more people) and I'm just "away" (my status that is) and some random dude that happens to be on my contact list begins to text chat with me like what's your name, how old are you, blah blah blah. Then he's like oh are you a virgin, and I'm like yeah I am and then he goes "what are you about to do" and I'm like nada, and then he's like "you should show me your tities." L.M.A.O. It was too much, I was dying of laughter like seriously? On Oovoo? Hold on, it gets better, so I proceed to lead him on like I'm gonna do it, and I'm like "well what do I get in return, this ain't no free show" so he's like ight and all that then he says, and I quote: "oh yea, can I see that p*ssy to."

WOW. I can't even. LOL enjoy ya'll.