It couldn't last forever

I knew me being up would come crashing down eventually. She continues to piss me off. I know I need to make a decision about colleges soon, but you don't need to fucking yell at me every two seconds about it. I'm trying my best to see what I can do to make up this 20 grand I need for the school I really want/NEED to go to next year so stop saying I'm not. All you do is say how everybody else knows when they have to be on campus, how much money they got and I GET IT. If you're so interested in what other people are doing then leave, just leave and be apart of their college process instead of constantly putting down mine.

Honestly

I haven't really been down since that huge argument early March and it hasn't been as bad lately, but tonight was bad. I absolutely dislike it when I'm being compared to someone else especially by my parents because obviously I'm not them and when you praise them and put me down it just gets to me. She constantly fuses at me because I don't do things her way or that of another parents child. So I guess because I do things MY way, I'm difficult, and I won't succeed in life. On top of that she even praised someone else's child for her accomplishments and bashed me for what I've achieved so far. 

Thanks mom, I greatly appreciate that. I have no idea how I haven't snapped and done anything to myself or her yet.

I'm referring to my mother

I swear I just want to choke the fucking shit out of this bitch.